I started out great. Drank my lemon water (bleh), (still having a hard time drinking that). I had my morning oatmeal with cinnamon and a handful of almonds and even drank some ice water. We had a trip with some other moms to a local zoo so I packed a lunch for myself and the kids, including healthy snacks for all of us.
We meet the moms at 9:30am and I'm already hungry! When I didn't eat in the morning I wasn't hungry until about 11am, and now I'm hungry after two hours of eating. Maybe that's the point, but I'm not getting it. So on the way to the zoo (actually before we really left the parking lot of our meeting place), I have eaten my first snack, another handful of almonds. (I need to go to the store). Anyway the drive is about 3o minutes and about 20 minutes into the drive I am falling asleep at the wheel! This is a couple hours after just waking up! What am I doing wrong here? We make it to the zoo and I make it until noon until we start having lunch. I eat my lunch (left over dinner from last night, salmon and green beans), and I'm still hungry so I eat my smack for later in the day (apple with almond butter). I'm STILL hungry.
We make our way through the zoo and all I can think about it food. That and I can't stay awake. Isn't this diet supposed to give me an energy boost? I know, it's only two days in, well....day and a half, but I wouldn't expect it to make me a zombie either.
Soooooooo......... I needed to go to the commissary (grocery store), and I get my fruit, vegetables, chicken...... and I crash, doughnuts and a Red Bull. Some discipline. What's interesting, I felt SO much better! I was awake (thank you Red Bull) and I felt normal again. Is this what an addition is? Am I addicted to bad food?
Now my dilemma is, should I hop back on the wagon full force, or should I give up all together?
When I was a kid I always thought losing weight would be simple... man that's biting me in the ass now.
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